"Circumcise heart" and "meat"

I was tired yesterday so took well a nap but slept…got up close to 10 pm had not fed the pups even their dinner. So fed pups cleaned them and all went back to bed…I got up couldn’t sleep. Yesterday a lot of thoughts about the Muslims and searching, wishing I could talk to Walid Shoebat…for several reasons in things heard from him, his testimony I loved as the man first hear did proper.. Ask God…about Messiah. I talk Ask Ask Ask over and over I feel..but people ask man not God. Walid had a love for God a seeking desire in his heart to know the truth so asked. Many people raised many different ways..believe there is a God. They don’t see evidence or things within their religions they investigate to gain knowledge of others. Yet how many with a heart to really know and desire to follow the one true God creator of everything including us…Ask even that way. Most all even talk or have a Messiah type in their religions. Walid Ask God to show him married a Catholic woman. Now the difference between him and Matthew is that he never said he was a prophet. That is what Messiah sent. So question…if Messiah said He sent Prophets, wise men and scribes. Who would be type giving instruction? How many religions have Prophets leading them? Anyway just asking…but that not where I was getting up at 11:12 again. Did though curious about Ishmael and timing of things look him up. While scanning some things hear:

“Circumcise heart” of course I am working on things to higher my son to work for me is the direction I am going. I want J first so had asked him how much money for you to work for me..I want no man over you. I asked how much he made a year…and would he for x amount work for me. So that is what I will do. If there is no support for me.. word then that is it I am done. I want no money for myself.. I want my son..starting with J. I will higher him myself..with support or I am done this can all be blown away. So I am going that direction I am done with people of this would wanting to know and understand anything done. I will say happy hunting next time if there is one. All are has bens (sounds like wolf benjamin Paul and Saul) to me…and J and Josh live as they would all in the world..let it be song.

Well I started weeping with that word talking to Father in head… all scriptures I brought “meat” Messiah.. who cares what u see I talk head to Father. It is great that companies like duckduckgo and bing and yahoo all do things to help search but you tell me what has any of them owners done to support my efforts? Or allow me to higher my son?

I am done…I will try myself as it is just me at the moment and may forever be for all I know. So that my yaking to Father.

I got not one dam penny with the fund raising not even from my family so no person but me seems to believe a dam thing. Not one email not one comment.. I have had enough…and that is what I told Father…show me something..I gave all I can give to a people like this.

IF NOT ANY PERSON OR JOINED TOGETHER PERSON CAN'T AFFORD AND SUPPORT ME IN THIS GIVE TO ME PEOPLE I WILL PAY MY SON J TO WORK FOR ME WE ARE TALKING 1 PERSONS SALARY IF NOT ONE PERSON CAN STEP UP TO SUPPORT ME AS THIS IS MY CALL ME FOR ME FOR ME

Talking With Father About Banners

I had mentioned the word banners a couple days ago on totallyalone site. Talking to Father as am sick of this waiting on dam men. It has been over well over a year not one thing done. So am planning to step out myself. Done with them all. My son's are still working for dam men not doing what call is...I will step out to get them funded as seems man just wants them trapped in mans land. J turned 50 time to start well mom will get-r-done since man is just stealing funds to even support them.. Sick of it I am. They and only they will know who they need to higher to work with them not any F'n other man. So a year of focus and light will come from me...God Our Father, put mother away?...but she still here. Now will do most myself simple.. will ask maybe a son to step out for mom on a bit of simple God is simple..and into Family names..showed that in the beginning..and book Matthew..no change. Any F'n man won't use his family name I take issue with in all things. Those the ones world won't let get found usually. 

Son's need a new name for business include mom maybe dad in the 2 houses you came from.. Now I thought about that and given their house name is actually Jacob not Jacobs changed to after here 20 years USA and same with me their mother...the house I am from was Ehrmann changed to Ehrman after youngest son came to USA change happened, his eldest brother here USA years before used Ehrmann so changed after youngest son moved affected children of eldest also then changed. Same on my dad's mom's side found out adopted name Paynter, but also Painter...for house of my dad both sides. Will ask my friend's attorney friend also in Florida about setting up a new house llc for work of Father. The two houses of my son's Ehrmann-Jacob truth it be. 

A friend thought you could set one up with hardly anything money wise. So will start myself now...on my own but wouldn't be surprised if even Bob would help me will see. Only man I know...besides my brothers. But advantage for our combined house that fits no other is we were all baptized by Daddy.  Bob did try.  Of course this place is world things, but for me myself and I...so not church ok...but Word of God (out of mouth of Father) only it will be as that is who and what I am. We as a family made we are...will launch for Father in world.

So much on heart mind just makes me weep... back to word banner even.. but heck it is worse than that ... just breaks my heart and makes me see no hope I say to Father...no man from beginning I ever witness in any type church anywhere ever...do what you did when you came...not one followed you. First you were baptized, repentance sins..and first call to do...next cast out Satan...say by mouth of God you telling them who you were and no man can tell the difference between words of man and your words.

I remember them years ago with the big item to buy.. "what would jesus do" No man notice your first moves recorded by Matthew and no man does that order in a church. We have rules people have to do to even be baptized...and all required repent, WORD..just repentance is enough..I don't here that one even at a baptism.  Stupid is as stupid does.  They think because said : Matthew 28:19 (KJV) Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:  stupid they are do they not know what baptize is?  I think the disciples knew because they followed Him knew what that meant...Repent they also did.  Couldn't even follow without that or be instructed  Babies are dedicated with a splash of water on head..and to put in place godparents.. someone of the choosing of the parents to make sure child knows the Lord...that is all..if something would happen the parents pass away.  I have no clue if Grant my grand son or Natalie even understood and did that while being baptized...most don't teach it.  If I take communion..I do it then too...who teaches it?  Do you think thanking for communion covers you?  Do you think pastor can repent for you?  with words says?  If you followed you would know thoughts are same as doing.. desire someone...so you tell me what person on earth doesn't need to repent?  daily probably.

Gosh then jump end..revelations...no man knew the name..what was written..."the word " so beginning and end say and no man followed. No woman either...yet all think they are saved, talk about a rood awakening. Won't follow how simple you made it.

I say this in head talking to Father:  Then what even to put on banner... call no man Father there is one.. you and your Father are you. Then we have the world use word God yet you told them there are many gods even us...so them all follow someone named god...and all have different names...when you yourself when here used Father. Now that was a draw with Matthew..he used Abba. But them dam Catholics use it when you said not to...so the man could have been Catholic..had me get a big bible like that. So we have a world that follows doctrines of men in every religion. So ok Father what banner do you want? Even OT you talk Father...and told them you put mother away.. them think you divorced her:

 Isaiah 50:1 (KJV) Thus saith the LORD, Where is the bill of your mother's divorcement, whom I have put away? or which of my creditors is it to whom I have sold you? Behold, for your iniquities have ye sold yourselves, and for your transgressions is your mother put away.

 ...you say show me the divorce...they still no get it then. One husbandman you they still no get it... Word what is a girl to do? Well I did look up to yesterday shake head and I do...but then these people spell it Zion and Sion... You tell them salvation by no one but you..saviour.Isa 43:11 ..you tell them the scribes lie:Jer 8:8 just like news today pic... You say salvation by the Jews Jer 8:8 and the way dna is done they think tiny group..when you said so big can't count them stars and sand mention. They just don't follow or believe words out of your mouth...can't tell a difference. So stuck I am on a banner...I think if from me shaken head a good one...lol

Isaiah 37:22 (KJV) This is the word which the LORD hath spoken concerning him; The virgin, the daughter of Zion, hath despised thee, and laughed thee to scorn; the daughter of Jerusalem hath shaken her head at thee.

Well Father you didn't have one for me to shake head at world.  Just pray for new footstool.