I did mention I could not do this one as only got 9 verses working so long searching but didn't say within that searching got so sick thought I would throw up got up had no idea in all I searched regarding these verses what whoever is my half sickened them as I have been sick broken heart but not throw up sick like that and quit. That was yesterday...today almost well just still could not do the chapter, as must have been so upset at that leaving I didn't even save the corrections I did do. Then a power outage.. that computer with no battery in it shut it all.
I did post and mention re Matt I called Levi even... as mean and nasty as he was re women and things they were teaching prophesying etc and with the church even though not to specific I could see the heart ache really for God's people and desire to save some even in the physical things felt coming to this place. So I was not run off... nor am I here...stepping out into areas. Even though I have not done all nor called myself as I am not a prophet, nor a dreamer to tell dreams of, I did correct a pastor, leaving a note..am sure without quoting vs..he could figure out what I was quoting...so not really my words except for how upset I was with it.
I have also stated over and over, you can not close doors to even areas where satan heads them...God created even them but does and can have His called chosen there, who like maybe we don't know Matthew Mattay was that book. So even my looking today word people there were 2 sets of brothers... Peter(Simon) and Andrew the others... could it be sons of Jona as in saying son's of Zebedee mentioned even in that book back to back.
So anyway with these type things even this morning could not work on that chapter again. I tell myself it really doesn't matter it is not salvation. I know my son's callings no other son's so can not say for anything of whosoever is my other half. Would such a man know if his son's were called? I would certainly think so same as I was informed. Could such a man use me and blasting I did to my son's with even childhood things see and point to same? Maybe. I would not think a bible collector is satan, but a code man could collect too.
So yes am always in the word that is me... and especially more now than ever.. and this morning questioning this tribe count in a vision Rev and whom mentioned. So people do have to look at things...just the small things OT I know... 2 married to priestess daughters.. who? Moses and Joseph was Joseph considered a king? we knew that boy had dreams as it really got him sold... by the family.. who? hahaha So these are just scriptures Father has made me read OT to see here there. Word it was Moses wife that circumcised their son's with a sharp stone not a man.
So just had to stop a bit even though wow that site looks totally cool now... lol but I plan to drop it. I only know people what I have walked and done and instruction given me by my daddy I did do...I tried also to do mom's. My mom was not really a project type woman when young but word the children... and the up and down steps 2 flights for laundry put away for 8. I was the worse and stated many times of the 3 girls this way...but did not inform my mom of what and why I would do things this way. We lived with 2 totally different type men. To me my big sister was the best of the lot...and closer to what mom had in a husband...the hard things to have to even test that with God loosing a child...word...yet am sure they both trusted for a reason and they do understand and know ages...so knew where that child was taken to.. Father.
My sister right after that, word she was worried about me because I would not and did not speak of it, she am sure felt it shook my faith or something and worried about me. Well I can't remember all I did do and when jumping on that Yo 17 prayer and taking things to God about it all I just can't remember but would not accept it happening to me went to court. He has an order that not the order. I did never share with any person how I talked and went to Father never...cause never heard another person do as I did. Does that mean I never prayed out loud a prayer with some other person... yes but very few... one with my older sister when little Josh in auto accident pray in car on way...I called sis asked her to go with me I wanted her for prayer with me she happened to be in KY. Went to run tell Betty, she said well she could pray why did I need sis. I wanted my sis, quick left picked up sis she waiting that quick for me, went with me, say her for us pray, I said prayer asking then for agreement you are... she felt the presence of the Lord with me pray she told me. No remember say, but this her godson's child. I knew more power for me if agreement..and knew I needed it.
I called this sis immediately after I prayed immediately for Bob's heart attack..I did immediate no wait then call my sis Con...to pray...knowing how she prayed...we would be in agreement.
When you do things so totally different than ever hear you wonder if something is wrong with you, but I refused to do different. It was the same forcing my daddy to pray in tongues when that man never in his life did that that I ever heard in my life. Only Father knew what the heck I was dealing with...only way for my daddy to battle what I did not totally understand was in tongues. I knew that by the Spirit of God. So I can be insistent at times!!
Anyway not sure when get that one chapter done...if I again have this tomorrow will skip the chapter for now and go to next see...
So anyway have not done much today really at all, as had running to do also and not over with that today. Lots to think about even what and where was today.